My middlemost runs up to me holding a blue ball of stringy plastic. It looks more like a skein of yarn than a slinky at this point. “Mom, can you untangle this for me,” he says with complete confidence in my ability to do such a thing. I look at it. I wonder. I roll … Continue reading Untangling

Today is the 13th of February. Marking that my precious little boy is 13 months old. Every month since he was born the 13th has been not only his milestone, but also a reminder of the day our lives so completely changed. This number weighed on me and some months ago I went looking for … Continue reading Thirteen, Thirteen

The words just seem stuck in me this last week. They won’t form complete thoughts and so, I have decided to write something completely stream of thought and see what happens. I am going to pick a topic, because I have a few that have been pestering me for a bit. So here goes nothing. … Continue reading A Faith Experiment

So I am single, and no this is not just occurring to me now, but it is more relevantly how I describe myself these days…I am single, and maybe I don’t hate it that much. I mean I can’t have the old life back, so this seems ok. I am comfortable being on my own. … Continue reading Single

I am living with a ghost. Not the ghost of my late husband Tony, he is a great and wonderful memory. I am living with the ghost of myself. Who I was when he was alive. I don’t think it’s an entirely new thing to have the past following me. I think we all live … Continue reading Living With A Ghost